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Poetry in Motion
A friend sent this screenshot to me this morning from Vernon’s Google Fonts page. It’s the sample phrase for Vernon’s ‘oxygen’ font So I decided to look at the other sample phrases on his page. I made my own screenshots and then wrote down the phrases as I’d saved them at random. I thought perhaps I could create…
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Oxygen
“He lives most life whoever breathes most air.” ~Elizabeth Barrett Browning Even with the oxygen treatment being added to make Vernon more comfortable (his blood oxygen levels are running around 74%) his lungs are working hard. His breathing is so slow…but it has been for days. The thing that I’ve noticed more this morning than even…
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A Room of Her Own
I checked out of the hotel this morning, sure that it wouldn’t be necessary to stay any longer. Of course, I thought that the day before that…and the day before that. We’ve seen signs of decline in Vernon, but they are still so slow that I never know until the afternoon what to expect for…
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Citizenship
Citizen:a person who legally belongs to a country and has the rights and protection of that country (Vernon under this photo in Joshua Tree, a place he resonated with. He was always fascinated by the deserts of America, so mythic and unusual to his European experience.) This morning I started filling out new forms for the removal…
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Such Great Heights
We managed to get through last night and all of today. I hear changes in his breathing, and they are ordering patches that will help with the wetness in his chest and throat. He seemed much more regulated as far as medication goes, and he hasn’t been noticeably awake since yesterday. Still, I think he…
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Vigil
Though of course we don’t know for sure, Vernon’s nurse suggested it would be a good night to stay here. I have a hotel room just a couple of miles away, but I’d rather be here. I think a couple of hours ago, I was feeling a lot more romantic about the idea. Now I’m…
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Calling All Angels
“In heaven an angel is nobody in particular.” George Bernard Shaw That’s the quote I posted with this picture on Instagram three years ago. I’d taken it off the pier in San Clemente and had marveled at its beauty, even though it was a common pigeon. The quote made a lot of sense to me…
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Labor Pains
(Warning to readers: If you are a pregnant woman, please don’t read this entry. It talks about birth pains. You can come back and read it later if you want to.) It’s been really hard the past couple of days. As soon as I think we are on top of his medication and he seems peaceful,…
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Hotel Days
I took a break for myself a few hours ago, coming back to the hotel room for a nap, a salad, ten minutes on the elliptical, twenty laps in an empty pool, and a jacuzzi. I intend to head back to Vernon’s room soon. Some days I’m more tired than others, so I’m so thankful for this…
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Bracelet Clasps
The hotel I’m staying in is just a short block from Newport Subacute, the first convalescent home Vernon stayed in. Vernon only stayed there for a couple of months before we moved him to Mesa Verde. I walked over there this morning because there’s a Starbucks on the corner. While waiting for my black americano, I strolled…