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  • Mythical Beings

    “Myth is much more important and true than history. History is just journalism and you know how reliable that is.”  —Joseph Campbell I took this picture yesterday in the golden hour at the care home. It’s me and some mythical creature, a nymph perhaps, caught in stone…and shadow. Caught between both worlds, I can relate with her. …

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  • Balboa

    My sister Cambria flew in from San Francisco to just be around, be of service, etc.  As Vernon finally asked for stronger medication, we left him to sleep and wandered around nearby Balboa Island, looking for lunch. It was a beautiful afternoon. We walked around the pier and caught some fresh sea air for a bit…

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  • A Guide to Dying

    I was given a booklet from the Hospice nurse called Gone From My Sight: The Dying Experience.  Here are some excerpts that stood out to me: WITHDRAWAL: “This is becoming a time of withdrawing from everything outside of one’s self and going inside. Inside where there is sorting out, evaluating one’s self and one’s life. But…

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  • With This Ring

      I sent the kids off to school this morning with plans to go elsewhere for a couple of nights, then I put my own suitcase in the car and headed up to Costa Mesa. My friend Nicole booked a hotel room for me (she plans to come down and keep me company tonight. I…

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  • Dave

    As soon as he got wind Vernon was in the hospital with sepsis, Dave Crossland, Vernon’s old pal and typography colleague (er, partner in crime) bought tickets to fly out from New York to see him. He knew it was serious. As soon as he realized Vernon’s time might be even shorter, he arranged to fly out even…

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  • Miracle Moments

    I looked through a couple old emails from Vernon this morning (and quit when I felt the tears rushing on.) Here is one dated 9/2005, so about the time we first met on Myspace. (Sigh, Myspace…a bit of a Melrose Place for the single 30-somethings around the turn of the century. Good times.) hmm this is…

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  • Justine

      This image came up on my Facebook Memories today. August 13, last year. We’d gone to pick up Maki at the airport after his summer trip to New Zealand. Can you see how thrilled Justine is to see her brother again? Here is a picture of them yesterday. Justine had come back from her…

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  • Walking Home

    “We are all just walking each other home.” —Ram Dass I don’t have the energy or time to write everything I want to tonight. But there is so much to say, so much I want to remember. This has been such a unique experience to walk through. Somehow Vernon has become so much more clear and…

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  • Fake Plastic Trees

       

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  • Maki

    I have to go up to the hospital for Vernon’s transition back to Mesa Verde in a bit, so I’ll try to barrel through this post. Chris Adams came home early from a trip to Yosemite so he could be there to pick up Maki at LAX. We drove up together, chatting about things, trying…

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