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The Seed in the Scar
A few weeks ago, I had a long conversation with an old friend who is coming up on the first anniversary of her dear mother’s passing. She asked me how long it took after Vernon’s death to get my energy and focus back after heavy grief. I couldn’t answer clearly as I’m not sure how…
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27 Months (Numbers and Poetry)
“What, after all, is mathematics but the poetry of the mind, and what is poetry but the mathematics of the heart?” ― David Eugene Smith I love poetry. Not every poem I read, and certainly not every one I’ve written, but since I was a teenager, I’ve loved the imagery, the rhythms, the depth, the…
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Know Thyself
“We begin to find and become ourselves when we notice how we are already found, already truly, entirely, wildly, messily, marvelously who we were born to be.”—Anne Lamott I recently wrote about giving myself permission to decorate my walls on my own time. It was a relaxing thought, this idea that my mindset mirrored my…
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Both/And
It’s always a surprise treat when my friend Adrena comes into town from Oregon to visit her family and friends. Although she grew up in the area, I only met her through Instagram about 7-8 years ago, when I wasn’t even living here yet. After I returned, we managed to meet up for a few…
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Crossing the Threshold
“In the universe, there are things that are known, and things that are unknown, and in between them, there are doors.” ― William Blake I’ve been thinking about the word “threshold”….because we crossed a big one this week. According to the dictionary, not only does it mean a kind of doorway, but also the magnitude or…
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Another End of Another Era
Vernon has been dipping in and out of my consciousness lately in a different way than usual. He hasn’t been as present as the early days, but just like I’d been warned by those who journeyed this road before, one should never be surprised when the grief and/or memories show up. In these moments, it’s…
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Moving (Again)
We are moving house again. Our landlords gave us lots of time, graciously, but a place in a neighborhood I like came up this month, and it seemed right to grab the chance. I want to stay as close as I can to Justine’s school so she can at least have that consistency for a…
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Dancing Queen
“Music does a lot of things for a lot of people. It’s transporting, for sure. It can take you right back, years back, to the very moment certain things happened in your life. It’s uplifting, it’s encouraging, it’s strengthening.” Aretha Franklin (May she rest in peace.) I’ve been listening to music non stop lately, mostly…
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Benson’s Last Days
“If having a soul means being able to feel love and loyalty and gratitude, then animals are better off than a lot of humans.” – James Herriot I have some sad news to share tonight. Justine’s beloved hamster has finally crossed over the rainbow bridge into that mysterious otherworld that the great souls of tiny pets…
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I Believe in YOU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AOMyS78o5YI This song came into my space today. I hadn’t heard it for a long time, most vividly around the time of Vernon’s death and memorial. My inner-circle of musician friends (the ones who selflessly surrounded him with their songs on his hardest days) came together as a group, and with a little direction, they…